Tomorrow I am having a hysterectomy. I am removing all my girl parts. Ovaries, tubes, cervix and uterus.
I am just beginning to stop and think of the "feminine" in this.
I was getting a massage this morning and I was laying there thinking about having my girls. I was thinking about all my happy and not so happy memories of being pregnant. How I craved asparagus and enchiladas. How I could not sleep. How I hated gaining weight but loved being able to eat extra. And how I felt the days the two girls were born.
Then I flashed to my periods, PMS, PMDD, BITCHYNESS! I thought of my PMS and Bitchy Mood swings. I thought of the money I will save on tampons and pads and advil. I thought of the freedom I will feel not having to concern myself with any of this mess.
So I write, in a therapeutic way mostly. I want to Thank God for making me a woman. For giving me the ability to be a mom. Allowing me to have the honor of healthy child birth.
I will not question why I have endometriosis and why I have had surgery three times to try and fix it or why I have to have this surgery. I will only thank God. I count my blessings and I am grateful for the gift of Womanhood.
This came in an email this afternoon......
May the road rise to meet you
May the wind be always at your back
May the sun shine warm upon your face
And rains fall soft upon your fields
And until we meet again,
May God hold you in the palm of his hand.
May the wind be always at your back
May the sun shine warm upon your face
And rains fall soft upon your fields
And until we meet again,
May God hold you in the palm of his hand.
12 comments:
Oh Catherine! I will be thinking of you tomorrow. You truly have been blessed with 2 beautiful girls, and if I could go another day without another period oh. my word. Sign me up! My Mom had her complete hysterictamy at 29 years old and never had to deal with any of that stuff through my childhood...moodswings, pads on vacations etc. etc. There are benifits to everything:)
Good luck sweetie!
Before writing this I put my prayer in with the Father on your behalf. I had a hysterectomy in Jan of 07 and I have been the happiest camper ever!! Being born with a disability and having to battle the monthly monster was so not a dream for me. I'm truly grateful God allowed me to have my princess way before any of this.
You will be on my mind tomorrow and again in my prayers.
I will be praying for you and then jealous that you will never have periods again.
Ditto.
Praying for you. For a safe surgery, doctor's wisdom, nurses' competence and caring hands, and a swift recovery.
Then I, too, will be jealous of your PMS-free life. And Joe will be jealous of Kipper's good luck :)
I will be thinking of you and praying for you tomorrow.
So, what are you going to do with the extra money you're going to save? Do I smell a vacation after you recover???? Nothing says "recovery" like Hawaii.
Oh, Catherine! This is so beautifully written. What a great attitude. As I said, I will be praying for all to go well, and for you to have an easy and peaceful recovery.
Love you!
My thoughts and prayers are with you for a speedy recovery!Lovely post!
Kipper was a great hubby to answer my texts asking if you were ok, etc. As I type this you're in your room, surgery over, hopefully resting and pain free.
You are loved and prayed for so, so much. And, thanks to Patty, the entire Emmaus community is now lifting you up in prayer. Expect lots of calls and well wishes...
xo!
How are you doing today?
Just wanted to thank you for stopping by the 5 Mom blogs on my post day. I appreciate the comment love!
Mimi
Delighted to meet you. Just found your blog and loving the honesty and realness streaming from your words. Through it all, you are clinging to God. Snuggled in His arms is the best place to be.
Hugs for your day,
Sarah Dawn
Praying for you....
yes indeed.
I hope the surgery went well and you are recovering nicely...
Yes, now that I've had my two kids and the husband has had his vasectomy, I can't help wondering why I still have to suffer through periods. It seems so unfair that I have another 10-15 years of this until menopause. Ah well, such is life. :)
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